It´s 2: AM and i´m standing on the balcony, smoking a cigarette and feeling the cool night breeze against my lightblue nylons. I have my pajamajacket on, and my white suspenderbelt and my panties are barely visible in the dark. If anybody would step out on any of the balconies above they might just make out what i´m wearing. But only maybe.
I have also undone the buttons of my pajamajacket so my matching bra is showing underneath.
But the best part must be standing on the balcony on a night in May in my wonderful lingerie, not caring about anything and smoking a fag and if anyone notices they will believe they are mistaken.
It´s the 11th of May and i have been wearing panties fulltime since October last year and i´m feeling great. Even if i always liked wearing lingerie it really took off in last July when i started dressing up for longer periods. I remember the feeling when i first wore a suspenderbelt for a full day, it was lovely!
But even if i do this for myself i also like some appreciation. I posted som pics on the Pantykin forum, and the comments were overwhelming. Really, i was touched.
I used to fantasize about going away for a week and only bringing lingerie for underwear so i should be forced to put it on every morning, but i realized that the choice was mine. All i had to do was to start wearing what i wanted.
Many nice things has happened since then, but one of the best parts must be to be standing at the drawer in the morning and pick the days underwear.
I love the feeling of a pair of soft nylonstockings and a suspenderbelt tucking against my thighs and legs. And i could never have guessed what a kick it would be to to wear a pair of pink tights with white dots and to choose a pair of knickers to go with them. Pink is such a feminine colour, and to wear pink is to go all the way. So feminine, and so is the wonderful colours of Mauve and Fuchsia which have also found their way to my drawers.
And i feel beautiful and sexy all the time, and i shave my legs and trim my bikiniline and balls. It´s so great to be fussy. I have also been sleeping in a black chemise with matching panties and a womens pad in the crotch. And i never thought i would go to my local Lebanese tailor to have my trousers hemmed and be standing in the fitting room in frilly underwear with just a curtain between me and the other customers. And i did not count on going to work wearing a pair of silverlurex holdups and burgundycoloured knickers, or that i should be taking so many pictures and films of myself.
Because it´s a wonderful confirmation of myself and my sexuality. I have a desire for my own body and i do a lot of crazy things. I film myself when i´m in the local counciloffice making photocopies in dressed in lingerie, or i just drop my trousers when i´m alone at work and admire my underwear in front of a mirror. Or i do a long photosession and pose, and afterwards i watch my films and photos and get excited. I very much like to se my sexy butt in a pair of frilly knickers, or to see my thighs and legs adorned with garters and stockingtops. I feel slutty and sexy and wonderful.
I never expected someone to say "You look fab" about a picture of me in red stockings.
Really great. And the fact that it is men commenting does´nt matter, because i have admitted for myself that i also fancy having sex with men. To sleep with a dildo between the legs a whole night (it feels lovely) and to fantasize about sucking cock is a favourite nowadays.
Love,
Lacey
PS: I did it again. Have been on the balcony three nights in a row. If i continue doing this i better get more stockings in light colours. Tonights outfit was champagnecoloured stockings with black seams, light pink suspenderbelt and white knickers and bra.
