When i started this blog i was prepared to receive some abusive comments and hatemail, but the few comments i get tend to be positive and i only have to edit out the automated spamming that swamps every blogger. And the emails i get comes from likeminded persons who tell me about similar experiences. I'm very grateful for those mails. But last week i had an email from a person who wrote that i should be ashamed and that i was miserable. I of course replied that i didn't feel any shame and, no, i was not miserable. I quickly added the adress to my junkmaillist. The sender had earlier expressed his appreciation of this blog, so had either become struck with feelings of guilt, had his account hijacked or someone else had read his emails, been repulsed and sent me that abusive letter.
It doesn't matter. Like i stated earlier i can deal with that kind of behaviour. And since the subject is out, let me tell you why i won't feel ashamed. Like all persons i've done things that makes me feel ashamed. I've done stupid things and behaved badly many times in my life, hurt people i care about, regretted taking wrong decisions, treated people poorly who didn' t deserve it. Those things make me feel bad. But there is absolutely no way i can feel ashamed of accepting myself as i am and sharing my experiences of exploring deeper into the kind of sexual identity i have. My posing in lingerie hurts no one. Some could probably argue that i hurt myself by acting in an unnatural way or being in danger of burning in hell for eternity.
Well first i don't believe that there is a "natural" way of sexual behaviour. Sexuality and reproduction are two very different things and should not be confused. In fact, reproduction by male/female mating can be very pleasant, but i think sexuality is much bigger than reproduction (the Pope disagrees with me on this one). Every person has a different sexual identity. Most of the time it 's easy to broadly classify a sexual identity as hetero, homo, BDSM,TF, queer or such (some people can only accept hetero as being the correct way, but i have already dismissed those persons).
But when we start to look at the individuals inside these labels we find that there is a lot of differences. Take for example a straight male person who has had a lot of female partners during the years. if you can get him to tell about his experiences with girls the pattern starts to widen. He will tell you about one girl who enjoyed giving oral sex and another who only wanted to receive oral sex, another who always wore sexy underwear and another who never wore anything but plain cottonpanties but wanted to have sex constantly and in as many positions as possible. And if we take into consideration the homosexual community i know fags who would never be taken in the rear but love to put their penis in a mans arse, and those who grow moustaches and wear leather and female homosexuals who like to penetrate their girlfriends with plastic dildoes while wearing the most feminine attire. Let's not go in to the subject of BDSM, because there are so many variations i could not keep track of them ( but they really seem to be enjoying themselves). And for my own pet perversion, Transvestic Fetishism, the individual variations continue. Some like to snatch panties from their neighbours washingline, some claim they are straight, some claim they have a female sexual identity when dressed, some only go for the underwear but some enjoy full dress. For myself, posing in lingerie for you is an important part of my sexual identity
Nature duped us into reproduction by hijacking sexuality. As i said earlier, male / female reproduction can be a very nice experience. But it's not the whole picture of sexuality. Each sexual identity is different, and when we have a partner we seek out the different aspects of our sexuality that matches and enjoy them. It 's really like a trade. " you like this, i like that, we both enjoy that particular action, so let's fuck!"
I really can not come to another conclusion than that the variety of sexual identities are so common in humanity that variation is the natural thing.
And after dismissing the subject of there existing a natural way of sexuality i will adress the the subject of hurting anybody. Well, as i mentioned above some of the things that i regret most in my life is when i have hurt other people. But my lingerie doesn't hurt anybody. If you are a returning reader of this blog you will know how i have taken care of the issues of being exposed as a pantywearer when they have happened close to me. I would never use my sexuality to discomfort anyone. But this is a tight line to walk. While i demand acceptance for my own sexuality from those who know and ask them to judge me by my other actions i will not flaunt my sexual personality in their face. I like to be nice and respect other persons identity and to be treated the same. As long as no harm is done anyone can do whatever they want sexually in my opinion. One could argue that my sexual identity could be harmful to me because bigoted persons could inflict verbal or physical abuse on me. That´s true, but the problem lies with narrow-minded people, not with me so there is no reason to stop wearing. And i have no plans of traveling to Uganda.
Anyone who gets offended by the images or words on this blog could easily have avoided it by staying away.
On the other hand, if you have read this long you must be genuinely interested and not afraid of facing your own demons.
Thanks, i appreciate that you read but i sincerely think that like Playboy the real treat lies with the pictures, not the editorial content.
