Dear friends. A film about the joy of attaching the stockings to my suspender belt.

Upskirt

Hi! I´m back. Sorry for not posting so much but the real world is very busy. 

Many cross dressers/sissys/transvestic fetishists or whatever you might wan´t to call us have experienced something that´s called purging. Well, that´s when one throws away items of underwear and tries to stop wearing that kind of underwear. My purge happened exactly four years ago this week. I got rid of my male underwear. I went into town, bought some nice boxes and put my boxer shorts in them. And then i took my knickers, stockings, tights, suspender belts, bras and other out from the cardboard box on the top shelf in the closet and put them in the drawers in my bedroom.

It felt so good knowing that ladies underwear was now the default option for me.  Four years now. It feels so good to choose a pair of nice knickers every morning, putting on a suspender belt and stockings and to know that i will do it again tomorrow. But as the autumn sets in up here in the north i have some times over the last weeks worn tights (for you Norte Americanos, that´s pantyhose). It´s always so fun to get used to wearing tights in the autumn. I like the warm and cosy feeling, and i always wear a pair of panties on top (i´ve written this before, i know). And it´s much quicker in the morning. I think most of you would agree that suspender belts are a lot more bother. Sexy and feminine, yes, and i love to be able to wear a suspender belt whenever i want.  So when colder weather comes in it´s always fun to start wearing tights after the summer. Besides, they make for very good upskirt pic and films. Which brings us to todays topic. I made a film featuring some recent shootings where i pull up my skirt. I hope you´ll enjoy watching as much as i enjoyed doing this. It´s the best thing in the world to be able to pose for the few of you in nice underwear and to transform myself into a pin-up girl.

 XXX, Lacey.

Pantyflash

Dear readers- Some of you have written to me and asked if this blog has been abandoned. No, but there is a big lack of time in my life right now.  And three and a half years ago when i started this blog things were so much more exciting. I was discovering a new world of pleasure and felt very happy to be able to share it with you.

Now there are fewer things to write about. There is a limit to how many posts featuring me in frilly knickers and suspender belt with texts about how wonderful it feels to have a dildo in my mouth that are interesting. And i´ve already written about how i enjoy to dress fully en femme when alone, and about starting to use makeup. I bet lots of my faithful readers would like to see me in makeup or riding a dildo, but that goes against two fundamentals i decided on when i started this blog, "No Nudity" and "Never Show My Face". There are 290 pictures of me already, on this blogg, you can check them all here

This week it´s been four years since i started wearing ladies underwear everyday and it feels so good.

I wish there was more to write about. Maybe i should try some fiction? Short sexy novels maybe about my sexual fantasies. But that would take ages to write. Or i could concentrate on better photos, but that would also take a lot of time.

But i sometimes gets a little time to make a film, and i get a real kick out of ut.

You know i get so excited by posing. I love being a sexy sissy, and i like that you see me dressed in my sexy underwear touching myself. In this film i give you a long long panty flash lying on the sofa. I hope you will enjoy it as much as i enjoyed the posing. 

Back in black

I´m wearing my 10-strap suspender belt and a lovely waistcincher today. I feel so nice and tight wrapped and and it´s very sexy. I also wear a skirt and a blouse, i love to be totally en Femme and do it more often.

I also had the time to do my favourite thing, pose for you and make a film. The film is about the joy of coming home from work and slip into something comfortable.

Total makeover

Well, i have crossed another line now.  I´ve spent the whole of last weekend wearing a skirt.
I bought this nice dogs tooth patterned skirt from M&S on sale. Cost just 15£.  And i have also been shopping the new Nylonica range from SHQ with lots of stockings in very feminine colors.

As i would be alone friday, saturday and sunday i planned well in advance. I filled up the refrigerator so there was no need to go out shopping, because i also planned on wearing makeup.
It was wonderful coming home on friday afternoon, choosing a bra and then stuffing it, then to proceed to the bathroom and apply eyeshade, powder, lipstick and mascara and then slip into the skirt and a pair of white court shoes and knowing that this was not going to end until sunday night.

As i had expected, doing the makeup was a little bit tricky but my skills got better during the weekend. I enjoyed the look of my made up face and really liked bettering up my lipstick. The feeling of the skirt and the different ways i had to adopt to move when wearing it was also very exciting.  I liked that i had to pull it down to not expose my stocking tops while sitting down and such. I also got much better at walking in high heeled shoes. On sunday afternoon i was posing for photos and filming me doing naughty things to myself when i could´t take the excitement any more.  I instantly felt that i needed to have something hard inside me, and lubed my dildo and stuck it in. It felt so great and i allowed myself to come for the first time since before christmas.  I soiled my suspender belt and my knickers and just lay for a long time, enjoying the wetness and licking my fingers.

XXX,
Lacey.

Bad Santa

I would like to wish you all a merry Christmas and a happy new year and take the opportunity to pose for you in my sexy red underwear. Thanks for letting me be so naughty...

Two months...

I love saturdays. It´s the only day when i have the time to dress slowly and take some pics of myself in my lovely underwear. On weekdays i just attach my stockings  and run.

 New camisole from Marks & Spencer

My favourite knickers and suspender belt, Cleopatra.

Last month i wrote about chastity. I really enjoy it. I haven't had my hand inside my panties for two months now and i only allow myself come when i use my fingertips and two days ago i had an orgasm just by having a dildo inside me. It´s very fascinating to find so many new ways to get pleasure (well, new to me anyway).

I checked on some older notes, and discovered that tomorrow is my three years anniversary for shaving.
Today, i could not stand having hairy legs. It makes me feel so feminine to be hairless.

XXX,
Lacey

For your pleasure

For this post i don't really have much to say. So i just decided to show you some of "pics of the day" from the last months.

I love the fabric in these panties. But they are a little bit low-cut and don't
have much control. The suspender belt is spanish brand Cleopatra, one of the best I've worn and i have several colors

 These burgundy colored knickers are an old favorite of mine. Together with a matching suspender belt they are really nice. To bad the black lace is ripped.

Quite a new purchase.  8-strap suspender belt and panties with black lace over red. So sexy to wear and to look at. And to touch!

Purple feels so feminine, especially together with white.  These are also very soft and stretchy and i like to feel them against my bum. Stockings look like Transparenze, but I'm not sure.

 These are very high cut and have a a lot of control with a see-through fabric in the back and lots of clever seams to shape the bum nicely. They also have double layers in the front, which i like very much. The stockings are Transparence Sara Logo, i really recommend those.

I love the red with black dots, the fabric, the lace bands and the cute bow. But these are really too low cut in the front. Stockings are Charnos 24-7, really nice.

These are very comfy to wear all day and together with a suspender belt from Cleopatra they look really good. Stockings are from Jonathan Ashton in a lovely color. Pity you can't see the black seams.

You know i have to show you at least one picture of my back in every post... My old old control body that still survives, together with a pair of full cut  knickers. I love to wear this outfit.

I don´t have that much to say right now, only that i have found the software to edit pictures, texts and blogposts on my iPad so i don't have to rely on my desktop Mac, which should give me the opportunity to be more productive. And i have also decided to play a little game with myself. For the next four weeks i will not put my hand inside my panties, only stroke on the outside with my fingertips or an open hand. I have tried this, and it gives a lot of pleasure, but in a very different, feminine way. I´ll let you know how it proceeds.

XXX,
Lacey.

Shame shame shame...

When i started this blog i was prepared to receive some abusive comments and hatemail, but the few comments i get tend to be positive and i only have to edit out the automated spamming that swamps every blogger. And the emails i get comes from likeminded persons who tell me about similar experiences. I'm very grateful for those mails. But last week i had an email from a person who wrote that i should be ashamed and that i was miserable. I of course replied that i didn't feel any shame and, no, i was not miserable. I quickly added the adress to my junkmaillist. The sender had earlier expressed his appreciation of this blog, so had either become struck with feelings of guilt, had his account hijacked or someone else had read his emails, been repulsed and sent me that abusive letter.
It doesn't matter. Like i stated earlier i can deal with that kind of behaviour. And since the subject is out, let me tell you why i won't feel ashamed. Like all persons i've done things that makes me feel ashamed. I've done stupid things and behaved badly many times in my life, hurt people i care about, regretted taking wrong decisions, treated people poorly who didn' t deserve it. Those things make me feel bad. But there is absolutely no way i can feel ashamed of accepting myself as i am and sharing my experiences of exploring deeper into the kind of sexual identity i have. My posing in lingerie hurts no one. Some could probably argue that i hurt myself by acting in an unnatural way or being in danger of burning in hell for eternity.

Well first i don't believe that there is a "natural" way of sexual behaviour. Sexuality and reproduction are two very different things and should not be confused. In fact, reproduction by male/female mating can be very pleasant, but i think sexuality is much bigger than reproduction (the Pope disagrees with me on this one). Every person has a different sexual identity. Most of the time it 's easy to broadly classify a sexual identity as hetero, homo, BDSM,TF, queer or such (some people can only accept hetero as being the correct way, but i have already dismissed those persons).

But when we start to look at the individuals inside these labels we find that there is a lot of differences. Take for example a straight male person who has had a lot of female partners during the years. if you can get him to tell about his experiences with girls the pattern starts to widen. He will tell you about one girl who enjoyed giving oral sex and another who only wanted to receive oral sex, another who always wore sexy underwear and another who never wore anything but plain cottonpanties but wanted to have sex constantly and in as many positions as possible. And if we take into consideration the homosexual community i know fags who would never be taken in the rear but love to put their penis in a mans arse, and those who grow moustaches and wear leather and female homosexuals who like to penetrate their girlfriends with plastic dildoes while wearing the most feminine attire. Let's not go in to the subject of BDSM, because there are so many variations i could not keep track of them ( but they really seem to be enjoying themselves). And for my own pet perversion, Transvestic Fetishism, the individual variations continue. Some like to snatch panties from their neighbours washingline, some claim they are straight, some claim they have a female sexual identity when dressed, some only go for the underwear but some enjoy full dress. For myself, posing in lingerie for you is an important part of my sexual identity

Nature duped us into reproduction by hijacking sexuality. As i said earlier, male / female reproduction can be a very nice experience. But it's not the whole picture of sexuality. Each sexual identity is different, and when we have a partner we seek out the different aspects of our sexuality that matches and enjoy them. It 's really like a trade. " you like this, i like that, we both enjoy that particular action, so let's fuck!"

I really can not come to another conclusion than that the variety of sexual identities are so common in humanity that variation is the natural thing.

And after dismissing the subject of there existing a natural way of sexuality i will adress the the subject of hurting anybody. Well, as i mentioned above some of the things that i regret most in my life is when i have hurt other people. But my lingerie doesn't hurt anybody. If you are a returning reader of this blog you will know how i have taken care of the issues of being exposed as a pantywearer when they have happened close to me. I would never use my sexuality to discomfort anyone. But this is a tight line to walk. While i demand acceptance for my own sexuality from those who know and ask them to judge me by my other actions i will not flaunt my sexual personality in their face. I like to be nice and respect other persons identity and to be treated the same. As long as no harm is done anyone can do whatever they want sexually in my opinion. One could argue that my sexual identity could be harmful to me because bigoted persons could inflict verbal or physical abuse on me. That´s true, but the problem lies with narrow-minded people, not with me so there is no reason to stop wearing. And i have no plans of traveling to Uganda.

Anyone who gets offended by the images or words on this blog could easily have avoided it by staying away.

On the other hand, if you have read this long you must be genuinely interested and not afraid of facing your own demons.

Thanks, i appreciate that you read but i sincerely think that like Playboy the real treat lies with the pictures, not the editorial content.

Reasons to be cheerful

One thing* that separate me from other people is that i have great sex** everyday. Few people have good sex, and having plenty of good sex is rare. Think about it: Do you know any person who have GREAT SEX EVERYDAY (except for young persons who have just started a relationship and confirms it all the time. It ususally fades after three monthhs...)?
Most people i know are disappointed with the quality and amount of sex they get. And this applies just as well to females as males, married and singles, hetersosexual and gay, Every magazine or sunday paper writes about "how to improve your sexlife".

Well, i´m not disappointed . My sexlife is great. I feel sexy and appreciated and satisfied every day. Of course, it´s very easy when one never has to consider a second person*** as part of a sexual relation. But the results are hugely satisfying. Having myself as a sexpartner is so rewarding that i never miss sex with another person. Of course i could think about several interesting things to do if there was other persons around. But that would be like adding Grand Marnier to fresh strawberries and whipped cream. Tastes good but is not really necessary.
I really do appreciate myself. Having a blast, enjoying the ride, lifes a gas etc etc. My ultimate sexual experience is wearing sexy underwear and posing in it, and that is something that i can do everyday. Please enjoy these pics from last friday, first i´m in the bathroom getting ready for the day and then i´m posing on a stage for you. Yes, on stage! It felt great standing on a stage in my sexy lingerie. I think everyone ought to experience that. Lovely.


*apart from the odd habit of wearing ladies undies of course.
** sex as meaning sexual experience , not intercourse and not necessarily leading to orgasm.
*** come to think about it, there is a second person. You. Thanks for watching.