Dear friends. A film about the joy of attaching the stockings to my suspender belt.

Upskirt

Hi! I´m back. Sorry for not posting so much but the real world is very busy. 

Many cross dressers/sissys/transvestic fetishists or whatever you might wan´t to call us have experienced something that´s called purging. Well, that´s when one throws away items of underwear and tries to stop wearing that kind of underwear. My purge happened exactly four years ago this week. I got rid of my male underwear. I went into town, bought some nice boxes and put my boxer shorts in them. And then i took my knickers, stockings, tights, suspender belts, bras and other out from the cardboard box on the top shelf in the closet and put them in the drawers in my bedroom.

It felt so good knowing that ladies underwear was now the default option for me.  Four years now. It feels so good to choose a pair of nice knickers every morning, putting on a suspender belt and stockings and to know that i will do it again tomorrow. But as the autumn sets in up here in the north i have some times over the last weeks worn tights (for you Norte Americanos, that´s pantyhose). It´s always so fun to get used to wearing tights in the autumn. I like the warm and cosy feeling, and i always wear a pair of panties on top (i´ve written this before, i know). And it´s much quicker in the morning. I think most of you would agree that suspender belts are a lot more bother. Sexy and feminine, yes, and i love to be able to wear a suspender belt whenever i want.  So when colder weather comes in it´s always fun to start wearing tights after the summer. Besides, they make for very good upskirt pic and films. Which brings us to todays topic. I made a film featuring some recent shootings where i pull up my skirt. I hope you´ll enjoy watching as much as i enjoyed doing this. It´s the best thing in the world to be able to pose for the few of you in nice underwear and to transform myself into a pin-up girl.

 XXX, Lacey.

Pantyflash

Dear readers- Some of you have written to me and asked if this blog has been abandoned. No, but there is a big lack of time in my life right now.  And three and a half years ago when i started this blog things were so much more exciting. I was discovering a new world of pleasure and felt very happy to be able to share it with you.

Now there are fewer things to write about. There is a limit to how many posts featuring me in frilly knickers and suspender belt with texts about how wonderful it feels to have a dildo in my mouth that are interesting. And i´ve already written about how i enjoy to dress fully en femme when alone, and about starting to use makeup. I bet lots of my faithful readers would like to see me in makeup or riding a dildo, but that goes against two fundamentals i decided on when i started this blog, "No Nudity" and "Never Show My Face". There are 290 pictures of me already, on this blogg, you can check them all here

This week it´s been four years since i started wearing ladies underwear everyday and it feels so good.

I wish there was more to write about. Maybe i should try some fiction? Short sexy novels maybe about my sexual fantasies. But that would take ages to write. Or i could concentrate on better photos, but that would also take a lot of time.

But i sometimes gets a little time to make a film, and i get a real kick out of ut.

You know i get so excited by posing. I love being a sexy sissy, and i like that you see me dressed in my sexy underwear touching myself. In this film i give you a long long panty flash lying on the sofa. I hope you will enjoy it as much as i enjoyed the posing. 

Pretty in pink

It feels so good to be able to wear something so very feminine as pink kickers and nylons.

I really like to know that you will look at me in my stockings and suspender belt and get excited.

It´s exciting for me too. I hope you also wear some nice sexy underwear while you watch.

I love to pose. It makes me feel so sexy and feminine and submissive.

Total makeover

Well, i have crossed another line now.  I´ve spent the whole of last weekend wearing a skirt.
I bought this nice dogs tooth patterned skirt from M&S on sale. Cost just 15£.  And i have also been shopping the new Nylonica range from SHQ with lots of stockings in very feminine colors.

As i would be alone friday, saturday and sunday i planned well in advance. I filled up the refrigerator so there was no need to go out shopping, because i also planned on wearing makeup.
It was wonderful coming home on friday afternoon, choosing a bra and then stuffing it, then to proceed to the bathroom and apply eyeshade, powder, lipstick and mascara and then slip into the skirt and a pair of white court shoes and knowing that this was not going to end until sunday night.

As i had expected, doing the makeup was a little bit tricky but my skills got better during the weekend. I enjoyed the look of my made up face and really liked bettering up my lipstick. The feeling of the skirt and the different ways i had to adopt to move when wearing it was also very exciting.  I liked that i had to pull it down to not expose my stocking tops while sitting down and such. I also got much better at walking in high heeled shoes. On sunday afternoon i was posing for photos and filming me doing naughty things to myself when i could´t take the excitement any more.  I instantly felt that i needed to have something hard inside me, and lubed my dildo and stuck it in. It felt so great and i allowed myself to come for the first time since before christmas.  I soiled my suspender belt and my knickers and just lay for a long time, enjoying the wetness and licking my fingers.

XXX,
Lacey.

All tied up at the moment

Hi, it´s me again. Your favorite cross dressing queer submissive pinup girl. Sorry for not posting for so long, but things are hectic. But i always find some time to play. And i´ve found myself some new very nice toys. In fact, i made one of the toys myself. I saw some very nice things in a shop and  got an idea. I purchased a necklace with a metal ring and a chain, and then i made this  piece of jewelry. The necklace goes over the hips, the chain goes between the buttocks and ring in front goes behind  the balls and penis. It´s a lovely item to wear under the panties. The feeling of the chain excites me. In fact, it´s nearly too exciting, i have twice soiled my panties just by wearing it. So i have to stop myself from wearing it for a full day.

The good thing is that the metal is easy to keep clean, i just wash it with soap and apply some disinfectant in the evening. But i would not advice anyone who is not completely shaved to try this. Even very short hairs get stuck in the chain, so i have to shave three or four times a week now.

I have also got myself some very useful patent leather ropes. I sometimes tie my knees together when i´m home and it feels so good to only be able to take very short steps. I also enjoy lying in bed tied up for hours when i have the time. And it also makes for exciting pics, you know how much i like to pose.

I made a litte film showing you my new toys. I must say that it makes feel so wonderfully slutty to know that you will watch me in this situation. 

XXX, Lacey

For your pleasure

For this post i don't really have much to say. So i just decided to show you some of "pics of the day" from the last months.

I love the fabric in these panties. But they are a little bit low-cut and don't
have much control. The suspender belt is spanish brand Cleopatra, one of the best I've worn and i have several colors

 These burgundy colored knickers are an old favorite of mine. Together with a matching suspender belt they are really nice. To bad the black lace is ripped.

Quite a new purchase.  8-strap suspender belt and panties with black lace over red. So sexy to wear and to look at. And to touch!

Purple feels so feminine, especially together with white.  These are also very soft and stretchy and i like to feel them against my bum. Stockings look like Transparenze, but I'm not sure.

 These are very high cut and have a a lot of control with a see-through fabric in the back and lots of clever seams to shape the bum nicely. They also have double layers in the front, which i like very much. The stockings are Transparence Sara Logo, i really recommend those.

I love the red with black dots, the fabric, the lace bands and the cute bow. But these are really too low cut in the front. Stockings are Charnos 24-7, really nice.

These are very comfy to wear all day and together with a suspender belt from Cleopatra they look really good. Stockings are from Jonathan Ashton in a lovely color. Pity you can't see the black seams.

You know i have to show you at least one picture of my back in every post... My old old control body that still survives, together with a pair of full cut  knickers. I love to wear this outfit.

I don´t have that much to say right now, only that i have found the software to edit pictures, texts and blogposts on my iPad so i don't have to rely on my desktop Mac, which should give me the opportunity to be more productive. And i have also decided to play a little game with myself. For the next four weeks i will not put my hand inside my panties, only stroke on the outside with my fingertips or an open hand. I have tried this, and it gives a lot of pleasure, but in a very different, feminine way. I´ll let you know how it proceeds.

XXX,
Lacey.

Shame shame shame...

When i started this blog i was prepared to receive some abusive comments and hatemail, but the few comments i get tend to be positive and i only have to edit out the automated spamming that swamps every blogger. And the emails i get comes from likeminded persons who tell me about similar experiences. I'm very grateful for those mails. But last week i had an email from a person who wrote that i should be ashamed and that i was miserable. I of course replied that i didn't feel any shame and, no, i was not miserable. I quickly added the adress to my junkmaillist. The sender had earlier expressed his appreciation of this blog, so had either become struck with feelings of guilt, had his account hijacked or someone else had read his emails, been repulsed and sent me that abusive letter.
It doesn't matter. Like i stated earlier i can deal with that kind of behaviour. And since the subject is out, let me tell you why i won't feel ashamed. Like all persons i've done things that makes me feel ashamed. I've done stupid things and behaved badly many times in my life, hurt people i care about, regretted taking wrong decisions, treated people poorly who didn' t deserve it. Those things make me feel bad. But there is absolutely no way i can feel ashamed of accepting myself as i am and sharing my experiences of exploring deeper into the kind of sexual identity i have. My posing in lingerie hurts no one. Some could probably argue that i hurt myself by acting in an unnatural way or being in danger of burning in hell for eternity.

Well first i don't believe that there is a "natural" way of sexual behaviour. Sexuality and reproduction are two very different things and should not be confused. In fact, reproduction by male/female mating can be very pleasant, but i think sexuality is much bigger than reproduction (the Pope disagrees with me on this one). Every person has a different sexual identity. Most of the time it 's easy to broadly classify a sexual identity as hetero, homo, BDSM,TF, queer or such (some people can only accept hetero as being the correct way, but i have already dismissed those persons).

But when we start to look at the individuals inside these labels we find that there is a lot of differences. Take for example a straight male person who has had a lot of female partners during the years. if you can get him to tell about his experiences with girls the pattern starts to widen. He will tell you about one girl who enjoyed giving oral sex and another who only wanted to receive oral sex, another who always wore sexy underwear and another who never wore anything but plain cottonpanties but wanted to have sex constantly and in as many positions as possible. And if we take into consideration the homosexual community i know fags who would never be taken in the rear but love to put their penis in a mans arse, and those who grow moustaches and wear leather and female homosexuals who like to penetrate their girlfriends with plastic dildoes while wearing the most feminine attire. Let's not go in to the subject of BDSM, because there are so many variations i could not keep track of them ( but they really seem to be enjoying themselves). And for my own pet perversion, Transvestic Fetishism, the individual variations continue. Some like to snatch panties from their neighbours washingline, some claim they are straight, some claim they have a female sexual identity when dressed, some only go for the underwear but some enjoy full dress. For myself, posing in lingerie for you is an important part of my sexual identity

Nature duped us into reproduction by hijacking sexuality. As i said earlier, male / female reproduction can be a very nice experience. But it's not the whole picture of sexuality. Each sexual identity is different, and when we have a partner we seek out the different aspects of our sexuality that matches and enjoy them. It 's really like a trade. " you like this, i like that, we both enjoy that particular action, so let's fuck!"

I really can not come to another conclusion than that the variety of sexual identities are so common in humanity that variation is the natural thing.

And after dismissing the subject of there existing a natural way of sexuality i will adress the the subject of hurting anybody. Well, as i mentioned above some of the things that i regret most in my life is when i have hurt other people. But my lingerie doesn't hurt anybody. If you are a returning reader of this blog you will know how i have taken care of the issues of being exposed as a pantywearer when they have happened close to me. I would never use my sexuality to discomfort anyone. But this is a tight line to walk. While i demand acceptance for my own sexuality from those who know and ask them to judge me by my other actions i will not flaunt my sexual personality in their face. I like to be nice and respect other persons identity and to be treated the same. As long as no harm is done anyone can do whatever they want sexually in my opinion. One could argue that my sexual identity could be harmful to me because bigoted persons could inflict verbal or physical abuse on me. That´s true, but the problem lies with narrow-minded people, not with me so there is no reason to stop wearing. And i have no plans of traveling to Uganda.

Anyone who gets offended by the images or words on this blog could easily have avoided it by staying away.

On the other hand, if you have read this long you must be genuinely interested and not afraid of facing your own demons.

Thanks, i appreciate that you read but i sincerely think that like Playboy the real treat lies with the pictures, not the editorial content.

New stockings and panties

Some new purchases arrived today. I always get so excited about seeing my new underwear. It doesnt matter that i´m already dressed in my preferred manner, i love to spread everything out and see all the lovely things that i´m going to wear. It makes me so happy to know that i have some new girls knickers and that i´m gonna slide a new pair of stockings on my legs soon and that i´m gonna dress up like a woman and look and feel girly . As you can see i bought several makes and colours of stockings. Besides my favourite brands i also bought some inexpensive but good ones that are a little bit shorter, so they fit well with suspenderclasps that are a bit long or nonadjustable, like on the Charnos Corselette i showed you earlier this year. I also got my first eight-clasp suspenderbelt. I ususally wear six-clasps, but i´m very excited about how this garment will feel and look and i look forward to let you see me wearing it. I´m expecting some new knickers this week and will probably do a photosession this weekend.

March 7

I have gotten into the habit of taking a photograph of myself every morning when i get dressed. In an ideal world i could share the pics with you everyday, but i don´t have the time and to be honest all pictures don´t turn out that well, even if the camera in my iPhone is quite good i prefer to pose with the camera on a tripod and take some time editing the pics.

March 17

March 20

March 22

But the best thing about my iPhone is that it is always at hand whenever i want to show my nice and feminine lingerie that´s hidden under my trousers.

XXX,

Lacey.

Summer fun

Hi, Lacey here again.
This posting contained a film that needed editing. In the meantime you can look at my sexy bum.

Computer world

I guess it´s happened to all of us. Losing hours of work due to computer not fucntioning properly. Or worse, losing lots of data due to user malfunction! Which is what happened to me today. I did a great photosession of myself in new surroundings with great light and backdrop, and did a good job of editing the pics afterwards. Some of my best, if i might be bold! But instead of moving the pics to a folder i put them in the rubbishbin and emptied it!
Sorrow is the word. Wonderful pics of me posing, gone forever.
I feel so stupid. I hope this video of me in cute white stockings works, but i suppose i´ll make a mess out of the uploading too... But if this one works i´ll post more videos. Please enjoy. I enjoyed being in front of the camera.

Blue blue jeans

I took a pair of worn Levis and wanted to make a pair of hotpants to wear around the house, but realized i could make myself a sexy minsikirt instead. It´s very short, doesn´t cover the stockingtops or suspenders* and it feels great to wear. So it´s a premiere, my first upskirt pics!



* of course i wanted it to be short!

After hours

It´s 2: AM and i´m standing on the balcony, smoking a cigarette and feeling the cool night breeze against my lightblue nylons. I have my pajamajacket on, and my white suspenderbelt and my panties are barely visible in the dark. If anybody would step out on any of the balconies above they might just make out what i´m wearing. But only maybe.

I have also undone the buttons of my pajamajacket so my matching bra is showing underneath.

It´s the 11th of May and i have been wearing panties fulltime since October last year and i´m feeling great. Even if i always liked wearing lingerie it really took off in last July when i started dressing up for longer periods. I remember the feeling when i first wore a suspenderbelt for a full day, it was lovely!

I used to fantasize about going away for a week and only bringing lingerie for underwear so i should be forced to put it on every morning, but i realized that the choice was mine. All i had to do was to start wearing what i wanted.

Many nice things has happened since then, but one of the best parts must be to be standing at the drawer in the morning and pick the days underwear.

I love the feeling of a pair of soft nylonstockings and a suspenderbelt tucking against my thighs and legs. And i could never have guessed what a kick it would be to to wear a pair of pink tights with white dots and to choose a pair of knickers to go with them. Pink is such a feminine colour, and to wear pink is to go all the way. So feminine, and so is the wonderful colours of Mauve and Fuchsia which have also found their way to my drawers.

And i feel beautiful and sexy all the time, and i shave my legs and trim my bikiniline and balls. It´s so great to be fussy. I have also been sleeping in a black chemise with matching panties and a womens pad in the crotch. And i never thought i would go to my local Lebanese tailor to have my trousers hemmed and be standing in the fitting room in frilly underwear with just a curtain between me and the other customers. And i did not count on going to work wearing a pair of silverlurex holdups and burgundycoloured knickers, or that i should be taking so many pictures and films of myself.

Because it´s a wonderful confirmation of myself and my sexuality. I have a desire for my own body and i do a lot of crazy things. I film myself when i´m in the local counciloffice making photocopies in dressed in lingerie, or i just drop my trousers when i´m alone at work and admire my underwear in front of a mirror. Or i do a long photosession and pose, and afterwards i watch my films and photos and get excited. I very much like to se my sexy butt in a pair of frilly knickers, or to see my thighs and legs adorned with garters and stockingtops. I feel slutty and sexy and wonderful.

But even if i do this for myself i also like some appreciation. I posted som pics on the Pantykin forum, and the comments were overwhelming. Really, i was touched.

I never expected someone to say "You look fab" about a picture of me in red stockings.

Really great. And the fact that it is men commenting does´nt matter, because i have admitted for myself that i also fancy having sex with men. To sleep with a dildo between the legs a whole night (it feels lovely) and to fantasize about sucking cock is a favourite nowadays.

But the best part must be standing on the balcony on a night in May in my wonderful lingerie, not caring about anything and smoking a fag and if anyone notices they will believe they are mistaken.

Love,

Lacey

PS: I did it again. Have been on the balcony three nights in a row. If i continue doing this i better get more stockings in light colours. Tonights outfit was champagnecoloured stockings with black seams, light pink suspenderbelt and white knickers and bra.

Sunday morning 2

I have been feeling sexy and slutty all weekend. When i was done photographing myself in the morning sun i went into town to do some shopping and have lunch. I dressed up in black sixstrap suspenderbelt, black knickers, black camisole, black bra and black stockings. Of course i dress in ladies lingerie everyday, but today i had the luxury of taking my time to choose, pose in front of the mirror to see that garters were straight and just admire myself. And as i did not expect to bump into someone i knew, i could button up my jacket so the bra bulge was hidden.

Sun is shining

The april sun is shining in through my windows so this morning was spent posing in my new Sista Shei-girdle. It´s labelled a "control brief" but has garters, so i call it a girdle and it´s wonderful. Only drawback is that the garters are too long, the adjusters slip and the clasps are lousy. But i love the red lacetrimming, the ruffles on the bum, the double fabric in front and the bows where the garters attach. I´m planning on just cutting off the garters and wearing a supenderbelt underneath.
I bought some new lingerie this week, including two pairs of holdups with lovely red and white polkadot bands. Below par quality but gorgeous, and my stockingdrawer is bursting anyway so it wasn´t a catastrophe when they fell apart the second time i wore them.

Show me!

I did some visitor statistics today, and realized that many of you are mainly insterested in the pictures featured here. Fine with me, i enjoy posting pics of me dressed in my finest and if anyone cares to look i´m happy. These pics are a few months old, from when i´m trying on my Allure basque and panties. Right now as i´m typing this i´m wearing a suspender and thong in the same style and in the pics from saturday you can see how my bum looks in these knickers. They are a bit different because they are loose, not tight as my other panties. and the feeling of lace and satin against the skin is very pleasing. I hope you also wear something nice while looking at these pics. Enjoy!



(btw, Teheran? I´m happy to have you here, but please be careful. Together we will erode the morals of The Islamic Republic of Iran!)

Sweet Saturday

Ooh, the pleasure of wearing luxury stockings! Today i´m wearing a pair of nonstretch skyblue Cervin 15 denier stockings, and together with my basque that has nonelastic suspenders they are a bit fiddly to put on but very lovely to wear. Not what i would wear for work ( i usually just go for tights and panties, or holdups. This winter i have been using Falke wooltights or stockings and they are great) but excellent for a saturday when one wants to feel sexy. I wear a waistcincher under the basque for shaping, and its all topped up with matching panties. I finally did find some time to take some pics, but i really do need to spend some time learning how to pose.
Also, it would be great to find a place where i can post my films. I would like to show you when i touch myself. In fact, i think i have go and make another film of me right now.
(and also, the laundry has been piling up. I love to do the laundry dressed in lingerie)