Two months...

I love saturdays. It´s the only day when i have the time to dress slowly and take some pics of myself in my lovely underwear. On weekdays i just attach my stockings  and run.

 New camisole from Marks & Spencer

My favourite knickers and suspender belt, Cleopatra.

Last month i wrote about chastity. I really enjoy it. I haven't had my hand inside my panties for two months now and i only allow myself come when i use my fingertips and two days ago i had an orgasm just by having a dildo inside me. It´s very fascinating to find so many new ways to get pleasure (well, new to me anyway).

I checked on some older notes, and discovered that tomorrow is my three years anniversary for shaving.
Today, i could not stand having hairy legs. It makes me feel so feminine to be hairless.

XXX,
Lacey

Chastity

As you already know, i have for some years been on a long and interesting journey to explore my sexual identity. And as i progress, things are getting even more interesting. During this time, getting sexual stimulation in a traditional male manner by masturbation has become less important. The need for, in lack of a nicer words, a quick wank, has given way to other forms of achieving pleasure. One is of course my exhibitionism*. Another can be called receiving. There is a very deep pleasure of licking and sucking a dildo for ten minutes. I found out that my tongue and lips are very strong erogeneous zones. Another thing was finding out that i enjoyed taking it up the rear. But pleasing myself in the ass is very different from what i ever experienced before. First of all, i have to be totally relaxed. Secondly, it takes a lot of time. And it can be a little messy afterwards, especially since a lot of lube is needed** Having a dildo inside is a very passive sexual activity. I have only experienced climax once while doing this, but it was highly enjoyable and i was not even hard. And i behave very different. I moan, breathe heavily and convulse. I give up control and give in to sexual extasy. I also quite enjoy just having the dildo between my thighs and buttocks, just enjoying the feeling.  And then i can also keep my panties on. 

 But as i said earlier, the actual orgasm is not that important anymore. I only ejaculate about once a week. I have tried to do without ejaculation for 14 days and it was quite fun. The important thing is not to allow oneself to put the hand inside the panties, and only use the fingertips for stroking. And like when i use a dildo the feeling is very different from what i experienced before. A deeper lust and a feeling of satisfaction even without having reached a climax. The excitement doesn't  stop suddenly, it slowly fades and stays in the background until it builds up again.

I have now stayed away from masturbation since the 8 of august. I still do all the other nice things, the only thing i will not do is to touch my penis in the conventional way. It's of course possible to achieve ejaculation just by stroking with the fingertips on the outside of the panties, and i have soiled my knickers and suspenderbelt a few times. But those orgasms tend to be longer, more like a wave than a burst and if i have the time i prefer to lie and enjoy the wetness and spread the sperm on my thighs and in my groin. I love to be wet.

I know that all these ingredients are usually seen as a part of a sissyfication process. Well, that makes no difference to me. I see them all as new ways to enjoy my sexuality. It's a real turn on to venture into a female sexual identity. The fact that i do this alone does not bother me. I think going this far would have taken much longer time if i had a partner even with a sympathethic one who dared to experiment.

By the way, i have been wanting a swimsuit for many years. One of the things that i really want to do is to go to a quiet lake and take a swim in a swimsuit. We'll, this summer i had the time and opportunity, but not the swimsuit. So i decided to take advantage of the late summer sales and get me one so I can be prepared for next summer. The swimsuit fits perfectly and the high cut legs show off my shave. Water is still warm...

XXX,

Lacey

Notes:

* posing, taking photos, editing pictures and then posting on the blog is very exciting but takes a lot of time. If i give myself quick satisfaction i cannot do the rest properly.

**if for no other reason, the sanitary pad in the panties is essential after i´ve fucked myself. A lot of lube trickles out afterwards.

For your pleasure

For this post i don't really have much to say. So i just decided to show you some of "pics of the day" from the last months.

I love the fabric in these panties. But they are a little bit low-cut and don't
have much control. The suspender belt is spanish brand Cleopatra, one of the best I've worn and i have several colors

 These burgundy colored knickers are an old favorite of mine. Together with a matching suspender belt they are really nice. To bad the black lace is ripped.

Quite a new purchase.  8-strap suspender belt and panties with black lace over red. So sexy to wear and to look at. And to touch!

Purple feels so feminine, especially together with white.  These are also very soft and stretchy and i like to feel them against my bum. Stockings look like Transparenze, but I'm not sure.

 These are very high cut and have a a lot of control with a see-through fabric in the back and lots of clever seams to shape the bum nicely. They also have double layers in the front, which i like very much. The stockings are Transparence Sara Logo, i really recommend those.

I love the red with black dots, the fabric, the lace bands and the cute bow. But these are really too low cut in the front. Stockings are Charnos 24-7, really nice.

These are very comfy to wear all day and together with a suspender belt from Cleopatra they look really good. Stockings are from Jonathan Ashton in a lovely color. Pity you can't see the black seams.

You know i have to show you at least one picture of my back in every post... My old old control body that still survives, together with a pair of full cut  knickers. I love to wear this outfit.

I don´t have that much to say right now, only that i have found the software to edit pictures, texts and blogposts on my iPad so i don't have to rely on my desktop Mac, which should give me the opportunity to be more productive. And i have also decided to play a little game with myself. For the next four weeks i will not put my hand inside my panties, only stroke on the outside with my fingertips or an open hand. I have tried this, and it gives a lot of pleasure, but in a very different, feminine way. I´ll let you know how it proceeds.

XXX,
Lacey.