Celebrating two years of blogging in suspenders!

Dear readers:

The next week it´s been two years since i started this blog. It´s been two very fulfilling years, because sharing my sexual identity with you made me grow as a person and become stronger and more confident. Most of all, it was a part of saying no to shame and yes to the person i am and my sexuality. As you know, i use the term Transvestic Fetischism a lot. It is because the term applies to me and there is no other word to describe it.

I take pleasure in dressing in ladies underwear and assuming a feminine sexual role, and i also experience pleasure when someone likes to see me dressed. I think this is a great thing. To be able to turn shame into joy is wonderful. There are not many people who get this opportunity, and to combine this with sexual satisfaction is even bigger. Also, there is a large boost to ones ego when someone else enjoys a picture or a film of oneself. I wish more persons, regardless of preferences, could be able to explore and express their sexuality like i have been these last two years.

It´s been great, thanks!

So i made a comic strip about being Lacey... I think you will have to click on the pictures to read the captions properly.

Disclaimer: Some of the pics are more naughty than before. Proceed with caution.

It´s been two wonderful years of blogging in suspenders and panties and being Lacey.

I still don´t know what gave me the urge to dress in ladies underwear, the only thing i know is that it makes me feel so good and sharing this experience with you makes me feel even better.

XXX, Lacey

by the way... Since i started wearing ladies underwear i´m a much nicer person. Still arrogant, ironic and cocky, but never mean or cruel. My anger seems to have disappeared.

Time is tight

I havent been wearing tights since early spring, only stockings and holdups. But today being the 2 october and quite chilly i decided that it was time for a pair of tights. I had forgotten how nice it feels and how good they shape the hips and legs.

I also found the time to shoot a film. Enjoy!

(but remember to lower the volume on your computer, as usual i added some music)

One perfect morning

Since it´s saturday i had the luxury of returning to bed and lie and enjoy myself for an extra hour. It feels so good to to let nylonclad legs slide over the sheets and. I also wore a tight white control body that made me feel so wrapped up. I really enjoyed all the glossy layers of shiny lingerie and i can really understand why some persons get excited by wearing a tight victorian laced corset. I only have bodies, corselettes, waistcinchers and basques but really want to have a set with a corset and matching bra, suspenderbelt and panties. Time to save up some cash!

But i´m not stranded for underwear. Two shipments arrived in the post last week so i have lots of nice sexy things to show you.
I havent found the time to do a real good posing or to make a film, so see these pics as prewievs.

I would hate to miss the opportunity to pose in these.

Another thing: A few days ago i was sitting at my desk when a female coworker came to me and asked for help with a problem. I was able to help her real quick, and as she said thanks she stroked my leg (me and her are very close and friendly at work) right over the suspenderclasp. I hope she thought that it was a keyring in my pocket or such...

Those of you who have been reading this blog for a long time might remember that i have been exposed a few times. Well, two weeks ago it was the time to have a chat with Anita who is my son´s nanny. We were having an evaluation talk which really should have taken place at least six months earlier. After talking about improvements in work, general direction, salary and so on i brought out the subject of me dressing:

-Well, there is another thing i want to talk about. I´m sure you have noticed that there several time have been ladies knickers in the laundrybin or hanging from the washingline?

- Yes, i have seen that.

- I´m sorry for that, but as i know you have seen the garments i have to explain to you. Those items are mine. I use ladies lingerie. I try to be discreet about this, thats why i keep a separate laundrybin in my bedroom and try to do the washing separately but sometimes mistakes happen.

- Okay. I noticed the panties but i did not really think much about it.

- I understand. But i don´t want you to be embarrassed, because you could have been very embarassed if you found out something that you thought was a big shameful secret of mine . I wear ladies knickers and i also like to use high heeled shoes when alone and i don´t want to pretend you´re stupid and not noticing.

- No problem. I don´t mind.

- Thanks. You understand that is it important for me that you cannot go around your workplace and by mistake getting embarrassed by garments?

- Yes. And of course i´ll keep secret about this.

- Thanks, i know you will.

Well of course, it wasn´t like this. My voice went high and then it got hoarse, i was red in the face and drops of sweat formed on my forehead and my hands were shaking...

Also Anita was not as cool as it reads. I saw she was a bit embarrassed of hearing this from me, but i do not believe that she had not figured it all out before. And as i suspected that she had put two and two together i figured that it would be disrespectful not to tell.

Besides, if all is known there are no secrets to be hidden.

I also had a delivery from SHQ yesterday. My first since early summer and really needed, i was running short on stockings. The suspenderbelt might be one of the best i have ever worn... i´ll make a report later, but there are some special twists to this model that i really like.

XXX, Lacey.

Summers gone

Dear readers-
The only good thing about autumn coming is that cooler weather makes it more comfy to be properly dressed. The heat this summer prevented me on several occasions to wear nylons under my trousers.
As i mentioned in an early post i celebrated two years of wearing lingerie everyday a few weeks back. Let me tell you about the day i made up my mind. It was in the summer of 2008.
I had started to wear ladies underwear for longer periods, but i was still not comfortable with wearing them under my ordinary clothes when other people were around, especially persons in my family. One day i had put on a pair of silky black panties* under my jeans but was interrupted and couldnt find time to change underwear. Later that day my exwife came over for dinner and i felt a bit uneasy about having a familydinner while wearing a pair of shiny knickers under my trousers. But i also felt excited. That evening i realized that i never had worn ladies underwear for 14 consecutive hours before and i felt so good about it.

A few days later i was to meet my exwife again to discuss her moving out to the countryside.
I decided to wear my new white suspenderbelt with matching panties when we were having lunch together. I was very nervous about it, but also excited. I took a long walk and enjoyed the feeling of suspenders stretching against my thighs when i walked.
My nervousness left me and instead i felt confident and excited. We had a good chat and the lunch took over two hours. As i walked home i made a decision: I would wear ladies underwear at least a short time everyday, but preferably the whole day. I was finally not ashamed with myself.
And i knew that i had to tell my exwife about my wearing. When i returned to work a few weeks later i again felt an uneasiness about using ladies lingerie under my ordinary clothes but that quickly faded. Later that fall i told my exwife, and in december i started this blog. Two wonderful years in panties and suspenders. I´m loving every minute.

* edit: those silky black panties finally gave up a few days ago. The fabric was so worn it ripped apart when i put them on. I had to throw them away after nine years.

The joy of suspenders and stockings

(yes, i decided that one way of getting the pictures to be more interesting would be to show my face. But until i get a wig and makeup i have to distort the features a little)

I love looking at old 50´s pinups like the art of Gil Elvgren. I would really like to be one of the girls who get´s their skirt stuck in a cardoor so their stockings are shown. And i also fancy the cut and shape of fifties lingerie. It´s so sexy, and with brands like "What Katie Did" and "Kiss Me Deadly" and shops like Pandoras Choice, Secrets In Lace and Hepburn & Leigh the net is full of lovely things to want to wear. Such nice panties and tight suspenderbelts and waistcinchers... I try to limit my spending on underwear to 100 € each month and that includes stockings, so i cannot buy all the garments that take my fancy. You have seen this fake leopardoutfit with matching bra, knickers and suspenderbelt earlier this summer, but i did not take any stills that time, only film. Seriously, posing in leopard undies is wonderful. These clothes feel so great and look really sexy.

By the way, i wore a pair of tights yesterday for the first time since early spring. Nice, and a very feminine mauve colour. But i missed the feel of a suspenderbelt on my hips and against my thighs. I would never have guessed it would be this way when i decided to stop wearing male underwear two years ago. Also, a few weeks ago i tried on a pair of male boxershorts in the morning just to see how they felt. Horrible. I only wore them for five minutes before changing into a pair of nice and lacy knickers.

Long hot summer

As you probably have guessed from my activities on this blog i i´ve had plenty of spare time for the last few weeks... but not anymore! I start working again on monday and i´m also getting a new computer... But i´ll leave you with a fresh film. I like it so much when i pose on film. It makes me feel very naughty to know that you see me in my stockings and suspenders.
As usual, turn down the volume if you are not completely in private.

Pale Movie

Dear readers.

I´m doing a complete overhaul on this blog. I have removed some older films that weren´t any good, and i edit and retouch many of the pictures that give away to much information about location and items that can be identified. The reason for this is that pictures and links to this blog have started to show up in searchengines. At the start i wanted to keep this blog discreet and secret but have realized that it is not possible to hide onself on the net. So films and pictures will from time to time disappear and comeback in a newer version. I do now also tag the texts .However, there is an good side to this. Some of the old films are quite nice when edited. Like this one. It was a long day, starting with a train at 6 in the morning, meeting people all day, cold weather, bad food, waiting and then i bumped in to a business contact on the train home so i could not even relax then. I was finally home at 9 in the evening. All day my suspenderbelt and stockings felt so good, and since i was wearing a suit i didn´t need to worry about the shoulderstraps on my bra being visible. Please remember to turn down the volume as there is some noisy music.

Now in off to water the flowers for my neighbours who are on holiday. It will be exciting going around their house in lingerie. I wish i had a French Maids dress to wear!

Concrete jungle

I´m so happy i made the switch to wear ladies underwear. I feel so sexy everyday, and it´s very fun too. If i hadnt decided to throw away my boxershorts i might never have had the opportunity to pose in fake leopard panties, bra and suspenderbelt and make a film of it!

This film shows what i wore yesterday. When i was out of the house i put my telephone and a box of cigarettes in the breastpockets of my shirt to hide the bra bulge.

I have wanted to do a session in this underwear since i bought the stuff in March. The film could have been a little bit shorter, but i had trouble cutting clips off beause i thought it all was soo good. It has several "closeups".

My favourite parts are when i sit on the edge of the bed and touch my bra and when i attach the stocking to the suspenderclasp. I just love to put on my stockings and cant get enough of i.

I´m glad to pose and dress sexy for you and it´s very exciting. For lack of better words i feel "slutty" when i know that you will watch this.

XXX,

Lacey

Summer fun

One of the best things to do on a warm summer day must be sitting in front of the computer...

Well, i finally found the time to make a new film. You have seen this nice O Lingerie outfit before. I love the knickers. They give a very firm control, and the lace panels on the sides are very tight and hiphugging. I also like the see-through back. It´s impossible to not feel sexy in these undies. But i must find a way to fill out the bra properly. I have been adviced to find some silicone breastforms but they are costly as hell.

But of course it´s not all staying indoors. I have been to the beach twice and it was a real thrill to get changed into swimwear under a beachtowel and to quickly hide my knickers. I wore plain panties with no lace under my jeans and i had made sure that there were no marks of suspenders on my thighs. Changing back in to panties under the beachtowel was even more tricky.

I would like to go swimming in a ladies swimsuit. Perhaps i should go for a late evening swim in a secluded spot one day?

Anyway, please enjoy my new film. I get a real kick out of knowing that you see me in my sexy underwear.

Some of you have given me your emailadresses so i can send a photo of my knickers everyday .

Too bad i couldnt keep the promise of a photo a day, but i´ll try to find the time. If anyone else is interested just email me.

XXX, Lacey

A quick one

I have been thinking on how to find a way to communicate my lingerie fetisch quicker, and wanted something that could be done on the fly. This blog could of course be edited from my iPhone, but it takes time and i want to have a good mix of pics and texts here. Short uppdates doesnt quite fit (i will make an exception if i´m on holiday). I tried Twitter but was not satisfied. The tweets got boring (there is a limit to how many times the sentence "wearing a black suspenderbelt today" is interesting). But i think some of you might like a short email featuring Lacey´s knickers everyday. There are some limitations of course. Don´t expect good quality pics, and there will at best be a short message. And you will also have to give out your emailadress to me, so make sure it´s a safe adress. Do not, i repeat "DO NOT" use the account at your workplace or an inbox that can be accidentally read by other persons. So if you fancy the idea, all i have to do is to take one decent shot of my knickers each morning and send it to you. You Norte Americanos will have it in the afternoon, and in Bedfordshire it will arrive before lunch. It will be an experiment of course, but very interesting and funny and quite exciting. If you are interested, email me at laceyinthenorth@gmail.com.


XXX,
Lacey

Thank You ( for letting me be myself again)

First of all, thanks to everybody who comments on this blog. And a very big thank you goes to the reader who sent me a very nice email a few weeks ago. As i stated earlier, even though i wear ladies underwear everyday i don´t always have the time for posing. And the identity of Lacey is separate from my public self with a different emailadresses, Google accounts and such so i do not access my Lacey-profile everyday. So if you don´t get a quick response it´s only for lack of time. ( in a perfect world i would show you my knickers every morning!)

Here are some pics from last week i want you to look at. I´m wearing my Charnos Hourglass Corselette which is lovely. I like the way it caresses my body. My bum also look so sexy in the lacy knickers. Those are Paris from Ballet and have a charcoal grey silk front and black lace on the back. The stockings are one of my favourite brands, Levante ( i have just ordered some more, i realized yesterday that i was nearly out of black stockings!)

It´s always a pleasure to pose for you. I´m honoured.

XXX.

Lacey

At the desk

One of the first films i posted on this blog was of me sitting at the desk in my underwear and touching myself. I made the mistake of posting it on YouTube and linking it here, and You Tube removed the film after a few days. I still like the film, but decided an update was needed. So here you go, this is what it looks like when i sit here and write this blog!

( You might want to turn off the sound of your computer if you´re not completely alone)

I understand why YouTube took the film away. It was probably because some person got upset when realizing that it was a male instead of a female in stockings and reported the video to YT.

Someone who otherwise happily gaze at girls in the same attire showing off in front of the camera. But what i do is harmless. I don´t throw my films at everybody, like a flasher in a park abusing women.

My mistake was to post the film in a place that´s full of bigoted persons with a very limited view of how people should behave.

Now, to watch this film you have to make several choices. First you have to find this blog, and then you have to consent that you willingly subject yourself to the material herein that might cause offence, then you have my disclaimer in the sidebar that besically tells anyone who dislikes the content to fuck off and then you click on the film. So i guess the few of you are really interested.

I like that. For one thing, i experince pleasure doing this. It´s like a mix of burlesque, dragshow, fetischism and exhibitonism. I guess its´the same for you, except that you experience voyeurism. Fine. Human sexuality has millons of ways to express itself, and this is one of them. Our sexuality is so deep in everyone of us that if we suppress it we end up sick.

XXX, Lacey

Give me just a little more time

As you may have noticed, my postings on this blog are somewhat irregular. And i have to admit (with shame!) that the quality of both text and pic´s have been on a slippery slope. The reason for this is of course lack of time. When i started this blog i had much more spare time for writing, not to mention a lot of old pictures. Well, both time and pics have been scarce lately.

I still enjoy wearing ladies lingerie under my clothes everyday, and i try to squeeze in the opportunity for a photosession, but editing, writing and publishing takes a lot of time that i

don´t have. But i finally did have a rest and decided to put together a short film made up from pics taken of me in a red suspenderbelt and knickers. Red undies are so great! When i´m President of the world i will make a law that everybody in the world will have a free red suspenderbelt* . It´s a wonderful garment. Please enjoy.

(you might consider to lower the volume on your computer, because i also added one of my favourite songs)

* of course, after making sure that everybody has abundant food, and water, freedom of expression and right to education and such. But the red sussie for everyone is one of my goals.

Nice flick, or? And now for something completely different. No, just kidding, of course we´ll stick to the subject of transvestism-fetischism. Lately, i browsed my bookshelves and looked att Guy Pellearts old book "Rock Dreams" (text by Nik Cohn). I havent opened this book för ages, but the painting of the Rolling Stones in drag made me remember when i first understood my sexuality was different. I wanted Bill Wymans underwear. This picture, and also the covers of Roxy Musics first albums (yes, i´m that old!) made me realize who i was. I must have been 12

or 13 at the time. And years later, i still try to copy the way Bill Wyman looked in the painting and having a good time while trying.

But i wonder what would have happened if i hadn´t seen this painting? I think it made me more prone too accept myself.

Intials BB

I´m so excited about my new ginghamcheck lace knickers. They feel so incredibly good, are very very sexy and gives my bum a 50´s pinup girl shape. It´s incredible to wear such lovely garments. I can easily imagine Bettie Page or Brigitte Bardot in these. I enjoyed it, now it´s your turn.

It takes two

K and me have been divorced since 1991, but her moving to my part of town made us realise we really enjoy each others company and since then we have met a lot. Movies, theatre, art exhitions, rock concerts, eating at fancy restaurants, drinking in pubs, sunday dinners with the family, easter and christmas gatherings, a quiet evening in front of the DVD with a bottle of Chablis and Tarantino, walks in the woods, biketrips with a picnic, a late night swim in a lake, friends birthdays... It sounds sickeningly like a romcom, and friends now invite us to weddings and other social functions together because they see us as a couple. I guess most people would agree that this is love.

But me and K have stayed away from the concept of romantic love and sex. Somehow, we didn´t want to fall into that trap. And of course i have told K about my fetischism. She doesn´t mind.

In her own words, "go for it".

But i digress. What i wanted to tell you about happened last week. I had accidentally ordered a pair of stockings that were the wrong size. K showed me her new Bettie Page bullet-bra she was wearing and i then suggested she go for a pair of matching stockings and showed her my new purchase. She looked at the red seamed nonstretch stockings and said they were lovely, but didn´t she need a suspenderbelt?

Of course i was ready ti give her a suspenderbelt ( i have plenty) " Oh yes, there is one that is not my size... You know, shopping on the net is difficult".

Her reply was that i should go to a shop and try the clothes before purchasing, but i explained to her that trying on ladies underwear was not so easy when you are male.

" Well, why don´t you go shopping with me then?"

That was one of the kindest things ever said to me.

Red shoes

Well, it had to happen. My first stiletto heels. As i was unsure of the fit i purchased a pair that was on sale, because red patent leather and 3,75 inch heels might not be the best introduction to ladies footwear. And yes, it´s very hard to walk in them and it hurts a lot. But i like them.

They´re sexy as hell and i feel tall and my legs look even better when they´re finished with a very pointy high heel court shoe. And the red colour looks smashing in pics. Right now i want a pair with a slightly lower heel to practice walking in.

What a waist

I wore this lovely waistcincher yesterday. It felt so great. Very tight and hugging and it gave such good shape to my bum, hips and tummy. Not to mention that it also smoothes out the front... I have been playing a game with myself. I decided use all my suspenerbelts in sequence and to match with the rest of my underwear everyday. Considering that i have 15 suspenderbelts it means a different outfit every morning for more than two weeks. It´s great fun!

Reason to be careful..

By the way, always remember to log out! I had a lady friend in my house yesterday, and since she has been without a computer for a few weeks she wanted to catch up on some stuff on the internet while i was in the kitchen. She was checking some blogs and suddenly wondered why she was commenting as "Lacey"!

Reasons to be cheerful

One thing* that separate me from other people is that i have great sex** everyday. Few people have good sex, and having plenty of good sex is rare. Think about it: Do you know any person who have GREAT SEX EVERYDAY (except for young persons who have just started a relationship and confirms it all the time. It ususally fades after three monthhs...)?
Most people i know are disappointed with the quality and amount of sex they get. And this applies just as well to females as males, married and singles, hetersosexual and gay, Every magazine or sunday paper writes about "how to improve your sexlife".

Well, i´m not disappointed . My sexlife is great. I feel sexy and appreciated and satisfied every day. Of course, it´s very easy when one never has to consider a second person*** as part of a sexual relation. But the results are hugely satisfying. Having myself as a sexpartner is so rewarding that i never miss sex with another person. Of course i could think about several interesting things to do if there was other persons around. But that would be like adding Grand Marnier to fresh strawberries and whipped cream. Tastes good but is not really necessary.
I really do appreciate myself. Having a blast, enjoying the ride, lifes a gas etc etc. My ultimate sexual experience is wearing sexy underwear and posing in it, and that is something that i can do everyday. Please enjoy these pics from last friday, first i´m in the bathroom getting ready for the day and then i´m posing on a stage for you. Yes, on stage! It felt great standing on a stage in my sexy lingerie. I think everyone ought to experience that. Lovely.


*apart from the odd habit of wearing ladies undies of course.
** sex as meaning sexual experience , not intercourse and not necessarily leading to orgasm.
*** come to think about it, there is a second person. You. Thanks for watching.

500 days

Today is day 500+1 since i stopped wearing mens underwear. It´s been a wonderful time and i´m happier than ever. In fact, being a sissy or tranvestic fetishist is now an important part of my identity and i could never suppress it again. I will continue to be discreet but i will never deny it if someone will confront me or if i´m found out. Putting on a pair of knickers every morning also makes one think about such things as gender, sexuality and genus. In urban western societies homosexuality is no longer seen as strange, but fetischism and crossdressing in various forms are still taboo. But society changes. 25 years ago it was still unthinkable for a talkshow host to be openly gay. Maybe, in a few years time Johnny Depp will admit that filming Ed Wood was very enjoyable because of the clothes he was wearing!

B-Movie

Sometimes i wonder what gave me the desire to dress in ladies lingerie. I´ve liked it since i was a kid and that seems to be the cause for most men who share this interest. Anyway, i´m having a great time doing this. And posing for pictures and knowing someone will watch is a big kick. I love that i can look feminine and sexy. But posing has it´s limitations. Sometimes a little more action is needed, so i also do some filming. However, making a film takes a lot of time. This one was shot around christmas but i didn´t finish editing until now. Please enjoy!

The big chill

(click to see better)

As i mentioned earlier i´ve stopped using mens underwear. I have now been wearing ladies lingerie for 442 days in a row ( no, i did not count the days. I was just curious and checked my old notes to find out) . I have occasionally used boxershorts as a cover up for going to the beach and such but i have changed back into knickers and nylons as soon as possible. And as it is really cold here in the north right now one has to dress up warm ( temperature has been -15 centigrades, which is 5 for those who uses Fahrenheit) and my ladies lingerie has really stood up to the test. Knickers, stockings and tights are not only more comfy, it´easier to combine ladies underwear to keep warm. I have tried several combinations over the last weeks. Falke Merino tights, Levante woolstockings, ribbed tights, thick opaque holdups, double pairs of knickers, camisoles under my shirt, body plus tights and stockings and i have been varm, comfortable and sexy. I would never go back to long johns and bulky cotton boxers. I have even used several layers of stockings and a body is perfect underwear for cold weather as it does not leave an opening on your back or on your tummy. Only thing to remember is that one should never use holdups over a pair of tights. They will slide down. But that is easy to cure with a suspenderbelt. And some makes of thin stockings can actually make you feel colder. Go for opaques. Here are som pics from last week. I wore red tights, a black body, a black suspenderbelt and black stockings under my denims. As i wore a thick lambswool jumper over my shirt the shoulderstraps and the underwiring of the body was not visible to my workmates. The only problem was when going for a pee. Very fiddly.

I like the combination of red and black. It looks very devilish (or come to think of it, like Darth Maul). I feel very dominant in red and black, and if you are not wearing nice underwear when reading this i immediately order you to go and at least put on a pair of knickers!

P.S. A Maxipad not only keep your nice little knickers clean, it also keeps your bum warmer.